Heather, my yoga instructor, guided me into the next pose.
"Lay down on your back, then put a block in the small of your back. Then either put the soles of your feet on the ground with your knees bent or put your legs straight out."
I did my best to get into the pose, one that was actually pretty simple, but the placement of the block, well...I wasn't sure if I had it quite right. So I asked for help. Now, in my late 30s, with three little kids, I'm not afraid to ask for help anymore. What a relief this is, not to have to know everything and do everything myself.
"Close your eyes. If you can keep them closed, then you've got it right."
I was surprised by this sure-fire way of knowing whether my placement of my block was right or wrong. If wrong and in a painful position, my eyes would flutter open automatically. If right and in a healing position, my eyes would remain blissfully closed.
Oh please may I have the same thing in life sometime? A simple eyes-closed or eyes-opened check on whether something is Right or Wrong?
Living and deciding and functioning in the grey is simply exhausting.