Sunday, March 27, 2016

Expectations

Can someone help rid me of my expectations? They sure do get in the way.

I realize that when I have no expectations or terrifically low expectations, I am surprised and happy with the outcomes. I know this, so I do my best to keep my expectations low or not have many.

I know myself pretty well. I don't think I have unrealistic expectations. I don't expect to head to school on unicorns instead of my Suburban or see the sky a nice shade of orange instead of blue.

But still, sitting here after Easter brunch, drinking prosecco and eating chocolates alone, I realized that I actually did have expectations of the day. I expected more chatter and laughter than silence, more warmth than coldness, more togetherness than aloneness.

And yet.

6 comments:

Laura R Brown said...

Ouch. Loneliness aches.
I feel your pain.
Sounds like it is time to call a girlfriend and visit.

Keith said...

Your opening sentences spoke to me. Such truth and power in those words!

Keith said...

Your opening sentences spoke to me. Such truth and power in those words!

Karen Szymusiak said...

Expectations are difficult some times. I hope your day turned out to be wonderful.

Anonymous said...

Sparkling wine and chocolate sounds fabulous...
But I hear what you are saying, and, as Keith said, your lead speaks volumes. I have only met one person in my life without any expectations. I want to be just like him :-) maribeth

Jennifer Laffin said...

Wow, what a great ending! Your choice of words clearly carries your feelings through and lifts them off the page. (I'm sorry that you are experiencing such aloneness today though.)

Jennifer